Beweglich & im freien Fall

– Und das ist die Sehnsucht -wohnen im Gewoge und keine Heimat haben in der Zeit. – Rilke Bis das Auflösen jeglicher Dualität und festgesetzten Normen dem Ewigen entgegenschweigt. Das ist der freie Fall – bodenlos und die Zeit nur ein Gedanke, der sich auflöst im eigenen, selbigen Fallen. Ob ich bereit dafür bin? Wenn…

on separateness

Your night kisses my morning. If you look for separateness you will not find it, you only find a distinguishing mind.   C

the journey into ones psyche

The true measure of the woman or the man is not her or his intelligence or how high she or he rises in her or his establishment, instead it seems to be the bravery itself of going deep down the rabbit hole of ones psyche in order to make the unconscious conscious, to let go…

the place of inner freedom

The ones that play the special games, know the psychological tricks, go along with the personal preoccupations, wear masks of social conditioning of all kinds and at the same time fly on the spiritual plane without distinguishing the two seem to be either courageous or totally mad. Another way to see it refers to the…

jumping into the unknown

Jumping into a new life chapter can be frightening. One merges with the unknown and surrenders to it. A certain amount of trust is necessary in order to jump effortlessly. It’s an inner journey for the most part that is then interweaving with what is experienced. Analyzing ones fears and exploring them is helpful to…

freedom from conditioning

There is a choice in following old thought patterns and leaving conditioning that might be destructive. One can cut through ones story, one is identifying oneself with and therefore appears limiting. Stop following the thread of thought if you know where it leads you. What is necessary is to take a moment, become still, witness,…

orgasm & the collapse of duality

Why is the very climax of an ORGASM so APPEALING? Besides that DESIRE gets satisfied and hormones get released, it seems that ‘in the very moment’ the ‘I’, or in other words the ‘identification with a Self’ loses it grip, gets softened up and eventually dissolves for a moment. There is a touch with Non-duality…

freedom of fear

Do you choose to live life based on fear, imprisoned within your conditioning, that is characterized by an attachment to the idea of duality, or do you choose to live life on the plane of freedom, that is freed from fear based emotions rooted in a concept of a solid Self – a separate kind…

‘WHO AM I’

Who are you without the stories you tell yourself? We are caught in dramas so thick…created by the ego – ego structures – ego karmas, that come out of our intellectual patterns. Conceptional models of ‘WHO AM I’ so to speak. These come from fear, feeling separateness and a misunderstanding of ‘reality’. Deeply, deeply I…

Losing control

You think you lose your control if you let go of the ‘I’ and all attachment to it, all the stories to it, all the concepts of it. But the irony is, you never had control from the beginning. And if we wanna even dig deeper into it: Ask yourself who and what is this…

Embracing of what is experienced

The resistance to what is experienced or perceived in a moment in time is that what creates ‘psychological’ suffering, as you put yourself in a ‘fight or flight’ mode, constantly trying to change the current experience that you have. This puts constant pressure on yourself, mentally and physically and imprints of anxiety, fear, anger anchor…

Dancing the dance

Having encountered Mahamudra and along the way other Advaita teachings in this life a little bit over ten years ago, it is giving me a constant dance between the human/conditioned experience and the taste of mind/body/beyondness. The practice seems to be not to see these two as separate, but instead of being out of the…

Inquiry and Meditation

Inquiry is the first step of walking the path of seeing beyond the duality of life. Asking questions is necessary. Don’t just believe what you have been told or what you have read. Sooner or later you want to move from the intellectual perspective on things to the contemplative. Meditation ist the best gate here…

pathless traces

All traces vanish sooner or later – one can see that this is the natural character of phenomena of all kind. As thoughts and feelings are in constant flux, so is our self perception. Appearance – emptiness like. This traceless floating is life itself. When awareness shines forth, it penetrates through everything and the non-dual…

Freedom from within

My investigation into the freedom from within contains many pages dealing with my obstacles and concepts of my perception of who I am and many hours of pain, as well of hours of releasing old stories that do not serve me anymore. We cannot, by introspection penetrate the self per se. Nevertheless Svadhyaya – self…