jumping into the unknown

Jumping into a new life chapter can be frightening. One merges with the unknown and surrenders to it. A certain amount of trust is necessary in order to jump effortlessly. It’s an inner journey for the most part that is then interweaving with what is experienced. Analyzing ones fears and exploring them is helpful to…

freedom from conditioning

There is a choice in following old thought patterns and leaving conditioning that might be destructive. One can cut through ones story, one is identifying oneself with and therefore appears limiting. Stop following the thread of thought if you know where it leads you. What is necessary is to take a moment, become still, witness,…

where does the feeling of ‘longing’ come from?

Whenever ‘longing’ is experienced, especially when it comes along with painful emotions, the concept of separateness / duality appears as solid. Whenever you are ‘at home’ in the deep sense of the meaning, no ‘longing’ comes to the surface instead there is the collapse of duality. This can be felt in the union with another…

who are you without your story?

What story is following you like a shadow through your life? With what story are you identifying yourself with? Holding up a storyline can be exhausting. Letting go of a story seems to require courage. There are different ‘tools’ you can use to soften up the identification with old thought patterns and conditioning. Bodywork for…

orgasm & the collapse of duality

Why is the very climax of an ORGASM so APPEALING? Besides that DESIRE gets satisfied and hormones get released, it seems that ‘in the very moment’ the ‘I’, or in other words the ‘identification with a Self’ loses it grip, gets softened up and eventually dissolves for a moment. There is a touch with Non-duality…

the action of letting go

Letting go of old stories is just painful from the ego perspective, as ego’s nature is to stick to old thinking patterns and to avoid the unknown. It can be frightening to ask oneself what and who we are without all the stories we grew up with, with all the concepts and ideas about ourselves…

the dance of life

In my life I have often used spiritual philosophy to re-enforce the denial of the human experience. Same as I consciously kept myself trapped in human conditioning to avoid spiritual experiences. Starting to explore the so-called ‘spiritual path’ often leads one into more fragmentation because it separates and devides one seemingly into two parts.  …

#empty manifestations

It shifts your perspective on circumstances if you realize that every manifestation is empty in itself and gains meaning ‘by relation to it’ only. Ergo no phenomenon carries a defined quality within itself that is absolute. If you investigate this understanding closely, you can find a certain kind of freedom in it – freedom of…

#impermanence

In nature nothing is at standstill, everything pulsates, comes into existence and dissolves. So there is absolutely no reason to buy into permanence and resist change. Surrendering to the ever-transmuting nature of things you come to rest into what is ever present. – C

trusting life

Exposing yourself to life and to all the twists that come along with it can be frightening sometimes. Speaking about my own experiences I observe in myself and others that men rather stay in their own suffering of clinging to the past and fearing the future instead of living the unknown. If one investigates this…

surrendering to life

By indulging in the unknown, one surrenders to life. By resting in the nature of alaya (the open primoradial basis of all phenomena) we can enjoy the display of whatever arises. A dance with inner freedom itself. – C

the fleeting moment and its inherent freedom

As one might realize if one dies to each moment and to all the stories one tells about oneself, nothing substantially is ultimately lost. One simply lets go of concepts and ideas about oneself. There is a part of it that seems scary, but that comes from thought (time bound) only. If thoughts disappear in…

becoming a naked button pusher

‘The spiritual path is not fun – better not to begin. If you must begin, then go all the way, because if you begin and quit, the unfinished business you have left behind begins to haut you all the time. (…) Stepping on the path means your experiences become penetrating, naked and obvious. Then you…

flowing with life versus fighting life

When we open up to ‘what is’ experienced in that very moment, we don’t hold back. Instead when we hold onto life, life itself can’t flow. When we try to control, we are occupied by controlling itself and the moment that is experienced is then colored by expectations, fear…by a constant pushing and pulling. Life…

rejecting versus coming home

Clinging to the past, fearing the future and comparing yourself with others are potential pitfalls maintaining a wall of separation….a separation of what is experienced in that very moment. It seems to me that psychological pain arises when there is a rejection of the current experience…wether it is in your personal or in your professional…